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|Sunday, February 18th, 2007|
|Monday, January 15th, 2007|
I am severly addicted to Jay/Bob slash fic...
I need help.
|Friday, January 12th, 2007|
|I fucking rock.
Feeling pretty damn confident about my PIP project in Wimin's Herstory, Understanding Drag. Took forever to edit, but it fucking rocked. I got such a big round of applause and questions asked and chuckles when in response to the question 'do you do drag?' I wrote my drag name (Ty Hurup) on the board. In French 4 and I heard Meaghan J. in the hallway say 'I wanna do drag'. And Hilary, who NEVER talks to me EVER passes me in the hallway, exclaiming loudly: 'AWESOME presentation. Awesome.'
And it's only second period. I win at life.
I win I win I win.
|Monday, December 18th, 2006|
I just might get reprimanded for mumbling "heil" to a teacher. My math teacher, Mr. Tanguay. 'Nuff said.
He deserves it, meddling confused little puppy that he is.
|Friday, December 15th, 2006|
I have Whooping Cough, folks.
In it's early stages, so, it's cool cuz I'm already on these little pink pills.
|Tuesday, December 12th, 2006|
I'm reading Rainbow High, sequel to Rainbow Boys. I feel like a gay boy.
I'm going to Prysm tonight. Everyone else should too because I don't go too often and when I do I expect to see positive reinforcement for me to return again in the future.
I hate freshmen. Not the individuals...just what they represent. They remind me too much of how I used to be then...and how much I would have changed if I knew then what I know now.
I WANT TO STAB VARIOUS PEOPLE IN THE EYE. LIKE THAT GUY WHO JUST WALKED PAST ME.
|Sunday, December 10th, 2006|
|You laugh until you cry, you cry until you laugh, and everyone must breath until their dying breath
Omg I had a GOOD TIME at the mall yesterday. With some really great really GAY kids. And one straight boy. Haha.
Reggie danced, made everyone stare...in a good way. He is such a fucking amazing dancer. This tiny little boy who looks so harcore but then he speaks, he moves, and he's the cutest little gentle gay boy ever. Heather would pretend to kick him and he would dramatically throw himself through the air and be all wide-eyed and like 'whoa! Did that just happen?!' and get up and be like 'behold, the power of the lesbian.'
Andy hung out with us later. Chad is fucking HILARIOUS. My whole face hurt from smiling and laughing so much yesterday. It was just a really really really good day. Heather is awesome. She's so sweet and understanding. She deserves someone to love her. I mean...I was so honest with her...and it didn't scare her away...which almost broke my heart...in a good way. Okay, maybe not so dramatic, but...it was just really...cool.
Saw Bob Marley...love that guy.
Saw Fallon...looking bored and desperate in her new job. ;) Her cousin looking cute.
OMFG SAW A BOY WHO LOOKED LIKE JAAAAAY!!! I mean, facial hair, facial structure, same blonde hair, same type of hat. Oh my goooood. Andy told me to go rape him...I almost did...please don't judge me.
I could not stop laughing...but then I hid.
These are the days I will look back on and look on even now and be like 'why would anyone like being straight?' It's just not something I get.
I have realized that I equate my self-importance with what I make public on this stupid thing.
So, to make myself feel like I have a point in this world, here it goes.
I believe that Heaven is a mythological place devised to give humans a sense of security and and an answer to what happens when we die. I personally believe we go into the ground (traditionally) and our bodies decompose and that is the end. It's not a happy ending, and not one I particularly embrace, but, whatever. It's what I feel in my head.
I believe Hell and the notion of Satan is a mythological place and mythological figure devised as two forms of social control. I would like to believe in demons. Ghosts. Shit like that, but...I don't know what my mind is telling me.
Maybe I'm just being stubborn. But if you do decide to call me that, don't use it as a pretext to trying to enforce your beliefs onto me.
I guess I just invested so much time, energy and faith into the Tooth Fairy and Santa Claus not to mention the Easter Bunny for such a big chunk of my life and with so much enthusiasm...just to be told that they're all lies...I've lost faith in everything.
I really wish I could believe in faeries.
|Saturday, December 9th, 2006|
.....what am i doing?.....
...im so lost...
|Lookit what I found!!!
Advocate, July 4, 2000
"Jay--who's always talking about women--is a character a lot of young hetero guys identify with. But I think Jay's really ambisexual. So it's nice to throw them a curveball to open up their perspective a bit. If I can lead a few cats into being a bit more tolerant, I feel pretty good."
Q&A with KS, VA-forum , Feb. 21, 2006
Q: Is Silent Bob ever going to meet his counterpart, Silent Girl-with-a-one-syllable-name?
A (KS):I think we've seen all the romance we're ever gonna see for Silent Bob. It's pretty much Jay all the way.
Oh my...I wasn't aware of this.
KEVIN, THANK YOU! I LOVE YOUUU!
|Wednesday, December 6th, 2006|
I have my second interview at Panera tomorrow. SECOND interview. Sounds good, right? I would love to work there. More than the other various jobs I applied to. Yesss.
OMG IT SNOWED FOR THE FIRST TIME ON MONDAY AND I JUMPED OUT OF THE WINDOW OF MY WOMEN'S HISTORY CLASS TO FROLIC!!!
Whiney little bitch says: "Miss Gradyyy, she just jumped out the window. Ms. Grady, Ms. Gradyyyyy..."
And Ms. Grady responds: "so what? She's admiring the snow."
Oh and later my Physics teacher let me escape outside and ordered me to make snow angels.
The joys of being a senior and living in Maine.
FUCK I really don't want to do my homework.
Wanna know what I have to do? Too fucking bad. I'm telling you anyway.
This is the shit I would like to get done tonight:
-Finish translating La Belle et La Bete and answered the vrai ou faux questions (time consuming)
-Read three chapters of Jane Eyre
-Read my personal chapter choice for Psych
-Topic 11 post-test and BWA11 for Psych. Disorders (ugh)
Shit I gotta do soon:
-research Ieoh Ming Pei
-interviews for crossdressing PIP project
-first chapter of senior memory book (on those who helped make me a lesbian)..or not. *Shrug*
I am in LLLOVE with Le Disko.
|Thursday, November 30th, 2006|
|Save the penguins!
Maine. Thursday. 2:00pm. November the 30th...tomorrow being December.
...AND SIXTY-FUCKING-DEGREES outside.
How the fuck does that work?!
Global warming, my friends.
Who wants to spend their Saturday afternoon walking along the side of the road picking up recyclables with me? Hmmm?
It will be fun. I promise.
Also, save the penguins. Please. They're too cute to go extinct. I mean...Happy Feet. Need I say more?
Fallon and Violet...the nurse is going to KICK the actress AND the ballerina's asses tomorrow. Watch out.
|Tuesday, November 28th, 2006|
I'm going to get bitched at...I took a milk from my school's cafeteria...I ran down the hallway when a someone shouted 'hey'.
|Tuesday, November 21st, 2006|
November 21, 2006
Shane and Jenny pairing
It’s going to happen. I am taking it as inevitable from now on. Shane and Jenny are going to get together. The sexual tension has built up between their friendship gradually for three seasons now and it is getting more and more obvious. The opening credits for example, have paired Dana and Alice which came as a surprise for me in the beginning but then they really did get together and it became more acceptable. Also in the opening credits is the pairing of Shane and Jenny. Specifically, Shane pulling back Jenny’s hair to kiss by her ear while Jenny has the tip of her finger hooked on her lip innocently, eyes fixated on the camera.
The deleted scene! Oh that third season scene and why did it get deleted? Jenny kisses Shane’s cheek and places her hand on the patch of skin exposed by Shane’s shirt, lets it linger as she gets up and drags it further down her chest and she gets up. Both of them smiling flirtatiously. This is not the only time they have had these little kisses like this, but those fortunately did make the final cut.
Please let it happen. It would be hot. I mean…whoa. Jenny and Shane are my favorite characters. Jenny is just emerging into her lesbianism, still somewhat innocent in body and experience but not in mind. She is a crazy, brilliant writer with a unique concept of the world and everything in it. Plus she has this child-like enthusiasm for life and the little things in it and takes pleasure in discovering the things that are truly ironic though not always pleasant. Shane…oh, Shane. Beautiful, sexy, seductive, confident, brooding, misunderstood dyke Shane. The heart throb of millions of lesbians, bisexuals and straight girls alike. Yes, Jenny is a little crazy and Shane seems to have her feet on the ground but they have both been fucked up in the past and I think they would understand each other on some deep level. The sex would be like a revelation. Like, maybe they’re in the apartment one day and with the blink of an eye, they’re all over each other, like it’s what they both need at that very moment to survive. Like it’s been pent up for months, like it needs to be released. Shane would fuck her like any other girl, but she wouldn’t be any other girl. And Jenny would surprise her. She would take willingly but she wouldn’t let Shane be satisfied and take enough. She would turn on Shane (no pun intended) and be the one to get her up against the wall. But she would love her tenderly, speaking to her, letting her know they can connect in this way. Like it’s the one element that has been missing from their friendship. An expression of love.
I can’t imagine it budding into a relationship. I imagine it as something fairly secret to the rest of their group and something they can’t completely come to accept about themselves as they have been ‘just friends’ for so long. I imagine encounters in bathroom stalls and Jenny taking a break from writing while Shane wanders in on a lazy afternoon with a beer in her hand. There’s not much talk between them about it, and around friends they shoot glances at each other and little pecks on the cheek and arms around waists, but nothing too obvious.
Damn it, Shane and Jenny need to do it.
Sooo guess what?
Shane, you know, The L Word one...was in my bed last night. We kissed. It was lovely. The only bad part...
...it was a dream.
|Friday, November 17th, 2006|
|Thursday, November 16th, 2006|
SOMEBODY CLOSE TO GORHAM PLEASE TAKE ME IN. SWEET JESUS I NEED OUT OF MY MOM'S HOUSE.
One year...one year...one year...one year...one year...
until I'm 18 and free.
Holy fuck I can't wait.